Why I don't post often enough

I'm not going to discuss all the reasons. I'm not sure that I even know all the reasons. (Some of them have to do with my mental/emotional condition at the moment.)

But, I have figured at least one of them out:

I think too much about who is reading this.

Thinking about your audience is usually a good thing. It helps you figure out topics and language and stuff. But this is a blog. And what are you supposed to write about on a blog? WHATEVER YOU WANT. This is about me. I get to write what I want.

But still, I get stuck on that.

Here is a sample thought process: "Do I really want that former co-worker who I know reads my blog to read this?"

Then suddenly, I can't think of anything that I want that person to know.

Of course, I could also be thinking of someone I work with NOW, or someone I go to church with, or a high school friend who found me on facebook or an old boyfriend.

It doesn't matter, the result is the same. I can't think of anything I want to say to any/all of those people.

I don't like that. I'm going to try to get over it. If a person is afraid of others knowing their thoughts or interests, they shouldn't write a blog.

Capisce?